nevver:

Bed Cartography

Have you ever felt like nothing goes your way?

That’s life.

You learn that you can do whatever you set your pretty little mind to-

until everyone knows what your mind is capable of.

You’re young, yet you want to run away.

You have so many places you know are better than here.

Me? Yes, I want to run, then again, I want to run further than most people.

I want to run to the place everyone talks about.

It’s so beautiful.

It’s so happy.

I want to be there.

I want to be dead.

I want everyone to know who they’re missing out on.

As they see my body get burried in the dirt,

they’ll know-

but they “can’t see the signs”

Nobody knows, except of course you who’s reading this.

Nobody sees my depression, it all comes out at night, right before I fall asleep.

While I’m in that weird stage between awake and asleep

where you find yourself being chased by a stranger

or falling off of a cliff.

My depression pushes me over the cliff and I wish and wish I would just

D i e.

I wish my dreams would come true.

subtlebones:

Her heart was buried beneath my
my chest — penetrating my lungs
but I could still breathe. As long as
her arms were nestled within my
heat and obscure shadows strayed
amongst the streets.

I wanted to open up her mouth
and exhale the life that was left in
me, so nothing else could eat away

Not everyone understands what it’s like to be hurt.

Family can fail you.

Friendswillleave you.

No one in this world can be trusted.

You’re on your own from the first mistake you make.

I’ve learned to deal with it.

Others, may not.

I understand, because life is a living

hell.

Nobody can save you.

I got to the point where I learned you just have to do it on your own.

I vowed to never fall in love.

I did.

I found the guy who understands and now I have a partner to go through hell with.

He makes me happy, but we still go through hell.

Which is why in the end

S

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C

I

D

E

is the answer to everything